I'm so exhausted all of the time. I only have the energy to do a few important things during the day. I've fallen off the face of the earth for most of my long distance friends, and I apologize. I can't juggle things like I used to. I don't have the energy to be on the phone and discuss things. I can never catch up with my emails. I feel like I'm often floating around in a blurry haze. Even though I sleep on average 9 hours a night, I'm never caught up. I don't know if I'll ever be the same. I used to hit the gym at 5:00am, work all day, get home, talk on the phone with friends, cook, clean the house, etc. I feel crazy, unable to accomplish the things that I need to, and each day it gets worse, more and more things piling up. It's like a sensory overload, and my lack of ability to prioritize, focus, and find energy leads me to be exhausted, frustrated, and disappointed in myself. I don't know how to manage. I need three of me.
Off to bed.
