Separation

Still here healing, step by step, word by word. Please forgive bad grammar and any miss spelling, I'm too exhahsted to fix it all.

I think people are starting to hear that Dan and I are been separated. In actuality been 2.8 yrs. It's really heartbreaking, and I feel comfortable that Dan feels the same. Over time we both found our life goals are and how we spend our time daily, weekly, our goals, our hopes and dreams became diametric oppose. 

I still consider him one of my best friends, even though our connection is a different role.

Also, I apologist but I didn't get a lot of sleep (2.5 hours) last night so my language is poor and I'm too tired, let alone the proton treatment in my language area.

We still live in the same home which I am so grateful about. Unfortunately, I can't plan, or make longterm changes as we don't know if this treatment worked, or what steps are coming as I try to figure out how to mange the chess game of cancer. I am between 1 to 2 months MRIs based by what they see each time. It's really scary, but I don't have a lot of control other that try to soak in as much joy and beauty. I have bad days too, but I try not to stay there. 

I know I have left so much out that I would love to share but I can't even think. 

Thank you to everyone for loving both Dan and me. I never thought this is where we would be, I don't thought Dan did either, but life is has no map.

Love to everyone from both Dan and me. 

Sneaky Hidden Treatment

Hi everyone! I'm still here, still alive. Last June (yep, a year ago) we started watching another brain tumor area. 

I tried so many things to stop the growth, but eventually it became obvious I would need to take a medical leave from my masters program.

My health became significant and scary in January, and I started a treatment in February, completing in April.

Also my written language is exhausing please forgive me. I keep reading and trying to fix this but I'm going to have to hope that you can understand what I'm trying to make sense.

I believe my brain and my language will improve and I will get back to more that normal as I always do. 

I still probably won't respond but the comments on the blog make me feel less alone. That's my favorate place I can go back to and feel I have people that love me and they're cheering be on.

If you text, or call, or email I probably won't respond. It's too hard with the langulge struggles. It's just too exhausting.

I could have worked on this for a few hours or used AI to respond and create this blog post but that's never been how I do this. This is authenticly me and were I'm at.

Thank you for all of the love and support, and I'm sorry that I don't have any social media,  it just stresses me out.

I love everyone! :)

I'll send more updates here as I share what has happened over the past year, but it it's also exhashting so it will a slow burn probably. But this will be so good for my brain too!!

Thank you for being patient and loved. :)