Thursday, September 12, 2013
Lately my brain has been foggy, for the past few weeks. I've been fighting it, but it's getting worse. Word finding, exhaustion, sentence completion, loss of control of my right hand and dragging of my right foot. I'm constantly in vertigo, and often I will will just fall asleep out of nowhere. It's scary. Because of this turn of advents, we are trying to get my Dopa Pet amd MRI scans scheduled sooner. I'll need to fly down to LA and I don't know how to do it all, but I'm sure my family can help me. I'm having problems reading, and taking care of things. It's sad. I hope that this isn't the beginning of a downward spiral. I haven't had these kinds of problem since I was first out of the surgeries. What's happening to me? My mind feels like it's melting, and my body feels like my right side is weighted down. I lay in bed every day, no more walks or running. I'm not sick though, feel like that would be better though. I feel crazy. And it's sad that Dan is noticing the deficits too. I've been having a nice long run of life, but I'm not ready to give up. But how will I fight when I can't research? When things don't make sense. I'm so confused. And scared. And very tired. The worst is noticing my mind evaporating. Please excuse my lack of emails/phone calls. I'm just too pooped these days.