Criminal Charges

Well, today is off to a great start! After playing tag with the Seattle assistant district attorney, she let me know that the city is in fact going to press charges in my attack case!! Apparently, the city receives over 200 new cases a week, and they were very clear from the start that there is no guarantee that charges would be pressed. This case has bounced around a bit, within the system, and I've had to give my statement several times. Each time it was hard, sad, and stirred quite a bit of emotions.

When I heard the news this morning, I thought I would be relieved, happy even, but instead I'm sad. The man who attacked me is married with four children. The oldest is 10 and the youngest is a set of infant twins. I did not intend to hurt his family, but in order to keep others safe I felt compelled to help the city press criminal charges. I know that this man has sexually accosted two other women, and he has become more and more aggressive. To attack a woman in her own home, working as her maintenance man, is incredibly brazen. This man should not be working in people's homes.

Anyway, I'm off to catch the bus for another counseling session. Alison is going to be THRILLED by this morning's news!!

Also, I included three photos from Saturday night. Throughout the night I was reminded of how wonderful our friends are. I am so glad that our buddy Eric got his job at the Blume Company, where he met Meghan who is married to Sean, who he then introduced to Dan, then Dan included me, and now Meghan and Sean have introduced us to all of THEIR friends, and Dan and I now have a huge network of fabulous buddies. There is no limit to the kindness of those around us, we are completely surrounded by love and support. And I know it's not just Seattle, it's Friday Harbor, Wenatchee, Poland, Sweden, and so many other places. Thank you! I am always grateful for all of the hugs and support. Especially with this upcoming clinical trail. I've been battling panic attacks, that's why I hadn't been posting lately. But, that's for another post, I've got to get running for the 358 or I'll be late!

First Solo Metro Experience

Things I've learned living in/about Greenlake:
1. There are as many dogs as people
2. Dogs don't mind wearing soiled poop bags on their back as long as they get to go outside
3. Dressing up is wearing Lululemon
4. One out of two drivers stop for pedestrians (a great ratio for the city)
5. People smile when you walk/jog by
6. Bus routes are convinent to get into the city, or anywhere else you need to go

So far, this neighborhood is perfect for me. I am officially in love.

Our house is a complete disaster zone, although better by the hour.

We live one block from a bus route and three blocks to another. This afternoon I am going to attack the metro to get to my doctor appointment on Capital Hill. I am nervous and excited to navigate the city alone. We'll see how it goes! It had been sunny and warm, but the clouds are rolling in. I might be walking in the rain. I guess it's now or never - maybe it's best I just jump in and get my feet wet :) It's going to be raining indefinitely for the next 10 months anyway. I kid, I kid - I'm sure there'll be a few rainless cloudy days too.

I'm Becoming A Mossback

Well. Things changed again. I never started taking the new pill. When we picked up the new prescription the woman behind the counter said, "That will be $192 please." I looked at her wide eyed, and quickly asked her if I HAD to buy it. Fortunately, she was incredibly kind, and said absolutely not. She recommended that I contact my doctor and ask for a different, more affordable drug (for the record $192 was just the portion that I had to pay out of pocket, the full price tag for the drugs for those without insurance was almost five hundred dollars. Yuck).

I have yet to contact Dr Graham. I'm so over this stupid anti-seizure debacle. It's never ending. Right now our lives crazy anyway. I'm sorry to drop this news over the blog instead of talking to everyone in person, but it's too hard to contact everyone. Danny got a job back in the elevator/escalator trade so we're moving back to Seattle! It's a fantastic job, and I'm excited to watch this next phase of our lives unfold.

Within the past five days Dan got a job, started safety training, we researched places to live (we already knew the areas we wanted to live), found the perfect place, and signed a lease. We move in on October 1st. It is a 6 minute walk from our new home to a PCC Natural Market. It's also a fifteen minute walk to the library. To save the best part for last, we will be living one block from Greenlake where we can walk on the trail. We get to have our dog Emma, and cat Stella. It's very exciting! Obviously, it's going to be incredibly hard to move away from my parents, and all of my amazing Wenatchee friends, but we will come back to Wenatchee often, and our friends will always be welcome in our guestroom.

It's going to be a healthy lifestyle change for us, this new move. I'm trilled that we have the opportunity to walk for groceries, and books. I can't wait to link my hand in Danny's, grab Emma and walk on the lake path. Our new little home has a communal garden which I can weed and eventually contribute to, and I'm thrilled to learn about the plants living on the wet side of the mountains, it's a whole new zone. This home is such a gift! What an amazing opportunity! Now I will be able to walk everywhere. I will have foot freedom!! WOO HOO!!! I had been very isolated since I could no longer drive. I feel a huge weight off my heart. I'm ready to explore and test my limits. Maybe, eventually, I'll even find a way to get from our place to my oncologist's office through the bus routes. I've only ridden a city bus once (thank you Auten, that was fun!), but I want to become independent again. As long as I don't have a stinking seizure in public. That would be embarrassing.

As for the anti-seizure medication challenge, I'm taking a break. I'll still keep taking my current drug to appease my oncologist, but if things worsen I'll contact her and try again. It's tough. Danny and I talked about the whole medication issue again last night and he strongly feels like my current drug is not a viable solution. But what do you do when things are so busy, life is changing quickly, there's packing to do and a move across the mountains. We still need to maintain daily life, and I feel like on this medicine alone I'm barely keeping my head above water. Additional medication might cause me to sink. Sometimes it's simply a fact of bad timing and if we do too much at once, at this point, I might explode. I guess Divalproex is going to have to be a stop-gap. We will revisit the anti-seizure medication next month. In the meantime I think I'll try to do some extra meditation. It couldn't hurt.