Fill It With Happiness

What a difference a day can make! Ever since I lost my cookies (I wish it was cookies, but more like curcumin, sulforaphane, piperine and such), I've been feeling better and better. My brother and his daughter Isla came by this morning, and we had the chance to have lunch with our buddy Burke.

Life is so complicated, and then in the very next moment, so beautiful and simple. Kaal, Isla and I walked down to Green Lake and tried to feed the ducks, seagulls, and any other feathery friend we could find, but alas it was raining and we ended up tossing peanuts into the air for no good reason other than our own laughter. Actually, that's a pretty damn good reason :) It was fun!

I'm so lucky. My only goal in life is to survive, and on that trail that I'm trying to blaze, I just want to be able to show my love to those around me. Hugs, kisses, laughter, and love - it's the whole point of living. My life would be so different if I wasn't battling cancer. This journey continuously reminds me of the true meaning of life. I don't want to take anything for granted. It's nice to just live in the moment. Life passes by so quickly, and there's joy in every moment. If you can't see it around you, just take a deep breath, close your eyes and think of something that makes you smile. Life is just that simple. You can make it anything you want, fill it with happiness.

Rogue Monster

DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I vomited. I wasn't feeling well, and like a rogue monster that frothy mixture projectiled from my mouth. As you can see from the amount, it was everything in my stomach. There was nothing I could do, and I'm so disappointed! DAMN IT. UUUUGGGHHH. Hermie's little home is still tingling, so maybe some of the components got where they needed to be, but I wish I could have digested it all. Aaah, fun. Chemo is the best. At least my stomach doesn't hurt so badly anymore. Still in knots, but the nausea is gone. This is why they put chemo directly into your veins, that way you can't throw it up. Oh well, I don't have that luxury. For now I'll just take it easy until next week. Gotta figure out what went wrong. Maybe I drank the mixture too quickly. Boy is my breath nasty. It's toothbrush time.