Tomorrow morning I start my next phase of speech therapy. I'll be traveling over to Seattle every Monday for the next six weeks. Fortunately, Danny has a 4-wheel drive vehicle that can easily conquer the passes.
Hopefully my full stomach will subside by morning. I'm in a food haze. Like most, I ate too much and I'm still hurting. Although my family had an extremely healthy organic feast, I still ate things that I don't usually consume. I had been really good about avoiding sugar (other than whole fruits), but my mom made an apple pie with raisins and an orange glaze that I couldn't resist. It was unbelievable. I even went back for seconds on Friday. Here's the problem, after I relaxed my food guidelines, I ended up eating all kinds of other things over the weekend. Food is a slippery slope, and one little indiscretion can snowball things pretty quickly.
At least tomorrow is a new day. Each day is an opportunity to start fresh and get back on track.
Nov 28, 2010
Nov 24, 2010
Relinquishing Control
Every few weeks I get nervous about the tumor. I try not to let it dominate my life, but sometimes that's easier said than done. I try not to stress too much about my heath, and the future, but then I find that I'm stressing even more by telling myself NOT to stress. It's a vicious, counter productive cycle.
I thought I'd be further along in my recovery from the surgeries. Again, I'm having to tell myself to slow down, rest more, and take joy in the little things. I can get caught up in the future, borrowing trouble.
I saw a woman at the gym today who I believe is undergoing chemo. She was completely bald, no eye lashes or eye brows. I smiled at her, and she smiled back, knowing that she probably has no idea that I've gone through some tough medical stuff too. I thought to myself how lucky I am. I'm healthy, I have my hair, I can exercise, I'm reading more and more, I'm really lucky to have successfully passed my past two MRI's. I have everything in the world to be grateful for, and I'm just going to keep focusing on that!
Each time I start to worry I'm going to think about something that I'm grateful for. Just now, I tried this little trick again, and my blood pressure dropped. My body relaxed and I inadvertently let out a deep sigh. Just like Jessica Abu Dhabi mentioned the other day, "Surrender to things." I need to relinquish control, and just be grateful. I don't think it'll be too hard to do. Just like thinking positive, you just have to keep on it. :)
I thought I'd be further along in my recovery from the surgeries. Again, I'm having to tell myself to slow down, rest more, and take joy in the little things. I can get caught up in the future, borrowing trouble.
I saw a woman at the gym today who I believe is undergoing chemo. She was completely bald, no eye lashes or eye brows. I smiled at her, and she smiled back, knowing that she probably has no idea that I've gone through some tough medical stuff too. I thought to myself how lucky I am. I'm healthy, I have my hair, I can exercise, I'm reading more and more, I'm really lucky to have successfully passed my past two MRI's. I have everything in the world to be grateful for, and I'm just going to keep focusing on that!
Each time I start to worry I'm going to think about something that I'm grateful for. Just now, I tried this little trick again, and my blood pressure dropped. My body relaxed and I inadvertently let out a deep sigh. Just like Jessica Abu Dhabi mentioned the other day, "Surrender to things." I need to relinquish control, and just be grateful. I don't think it'll be too hard to do. Just like thinking positive, you just have to keep on it. :)
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