I just got my MRI results; they popped up with a "DING" in my cell phone notifications. The scan was over a week ago, and usually it takes much longer for results, so a fast turnaround dropped my heart into my tittle toe. Usually, in the medical world, the faster the results, the more concerning the situation. (Not always, but often in my experience.)
I've been on an experimental drug, and although it clearly seems to be working, you never know when the ball might drop. I mean, I've had to hustle ever since I was diagnosed, ten years ago, so the idea of something really working is completely foreign. But it truly is working! My tumor has not grown since May of 2019. Call that what you will, but it feels like a freaking miracle!!!
For the record, I tracked this drug for over 6 years before I could access it. No joke. I have been calling and emailing the drug company to see if they participated in compassionate use yet. I watched it because although it's for a different type of cancer, the drug targets a mutation that I share. I have flown across the country a few times tying to gain access. I have tried to impress doctors, or tried to see if I could get access through mutual connections. I have turned down risky treatments, hoping for access for this safer option. I have been told that I had to do a 5th brain surgery in order to access this drug. I was told that the drug is too expensive ($25,000/mo). Thankfully, all of the hard work, the literal years and years, the doggedness, the fear, the listening to my gut when I was being pressured to tow the medical "line", are paying off. I never know how long the good new will last, but damn if I'm not going to have a glass of champagne tonight, and run in the rain in the morning!
I'm clearly rusty with my delivery/writing skills, but I wanted to give you an update, and thank everyone for sharing this journey with us. For loving and supporting us. The next MRI will be in January or February.
I am THRILLED to get the honor - and as cheesy as it is, it is a true honor - to get to be here, and feel sore from a workout, or try a new recipe, or laugh at my dog when she barks in her sleep.
I still get to be here!!!! I am still here, and life is such a gift.
First patient MRI of the day, then a celebratory lap around Green Lake |
Never had any sort of "cool" factor. (Ha!) |
Just watched your episode of MLD, and I wanted to find an update on how you were doing. I am so thrilled that you have shared this news — it truly warms my heart, especially after JUST learning of your story. Keep on shining that beautiful light of yours and living each day with grace, love, and gratitude. ❤️
ReplyDeleteSo awesome to hear the good news! I hope the honor of being here continues to be bestowed upon you for the many decades to come. You are a ray of light!
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely incredible news! I love that I have gotten to follow your story and triumphs for such a long time. Hope is a great gift for anyone.
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ReplyDeleteJess I was so touched by your story. My son was diagnosed with an aggressive gr 3 astrocytoma 4 years ago. He's 38 and doing very well. After his initial surgery July 2016, he needed a second one in Nov 2016. He's been tumor free ever since. Im an NP and I wanted to share this study with you in case it would be helpful. Prayers and blessing for you and Dan.regards, Brenda Antiproliferative efficacy of elderberries and elderflowers (Sambucus canadensis) on glioma and brain endothelial cells under normoxic and hypoxic conditions - ScienceDirect
https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S175646461730659X
Wonderful news. The first of many miracles to come. ❤️🎄
ReplyDeleteHugs and love ❤️
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Jess, you are amazing! Such a beautiful person! You make me want to be a better person! I have a hard time loving myself and loving life but watching your story has really inspired me! Thank You For That! You will be in my Prayers! ❤️Hugs
ReplyDeleteThis makes my heart happy. I’m yank you for the incredible story and update.
ReplyDeleteThis makes my heart happy. I’m yank you for the incredible story and update.
ReplyDeleteThank you for continuing to update. I'm one of the many who learned of you via My Last Days. I'm so happy you're here and that things are going well.
ReplyDeleteI looked through your resources page but didn't see any mention of Imerman Angels. I think you would be a fantastic mentor!
Either way, keep fighting the good fight and know there a lot people sending love to you and Dan.
You and your story are inspirational. I heard about you via My Last Days on Facebook. You deserve all the happiness you pull from life. It’s clear that you have decided to pursue joy despite all the challenges life has thrown at you. All the best to you.
ReplyDeleteYou are truly an inspiration to so many. You have true grit, girl!
ReplyDeleteWhat wonderful news! For you, for the world!
ReplyDeleteI hope everything is still going well for you! My 6 year old and I are continuing to root for you!
ReplyDeleteI just saw your story on soul pancake. Bawled my eyes out. I am so happy for you...and Dan! 2 beautiful angels on earth! Sending you ❤️ and 🙏 and happy wishes! 🥰
ReplyDeleteJess - May you and Dan continue to experience every joy and blessing possible for as long as possible. You are an inspiration in the truest form. Keep pushing for what you believe is the right path for you - your instincts, drive and the love that surrounds you will continue to sustain you. Peace and blessings for many years to come for you and Dan. You have another fan rooting for you and praying for continued strength! ��
ReplyDeleteJess - May you and Dan continue to experience every joy and blessing possible for as long as possible. You are an inspiration in the truest form. Keep pushing for what you believe is the right path for you - your instincts, drive and the love that surrounds you will continue to sustain you. Peace and blessings for many years to come for you and Dan. You have another fan rooting for you and praying for continued strength! 💕
ReplyDeleteJess - May you and Dan continue to experience every joy and blessing possible for as long as possible. You are an inspiration in the truest form. Keep pushing for what you believe is the right path for you - your instincts, drive and the love that surrounds you will continue to sustain you. Peace and blessings for many years to come for you and Dan. You have another fan rooting for you and praying for continued strength! 💕
ReplyDeleteI just watched your My Last Days video on Facebook and googled you to try and find an update. I’m over the moon thrilled that you are still here and living life to the fullest with a strong will to fight! I’m so glad that you and Dan have each other to spend forever with! My pillow is now full of tears of joy as I pray for you as you continue on your journey! Sending love and prayers, Jodi Barton -Fort Worth, Texas
ReplyDeleteHi Jess, a happy new year to you. I am so happy you are still here. I just watched your episode of MLD on Facebook and someone shared your blog. One thing is for sure, positivity is a necessity in the fight against cancer. My sister is undergoing treatment for Hodgkin's Lymphoma and we are very hopeful she will beat it, although our healthcare system (����) is different from what is available over there. All the same, she is fighting as hard as are hopefully. Extend my regards to Dan and all your family. Stay blessed.
ReplyDeleteI love u and I do not even know you. You are sweet and compassionate and thanks for given hope to so many people. Supporting you and Dan all the way from South Africa. I hope you are doing great in this Covid times. Bless you. Love Veronica.
ReplyDeleteJess, I just watched your story on My Last Days. I have never cried at a wedding until I saw yours. Wow! How wonderful that you and Dan have each other. I also, am pleased to find your blog. Hoping that all is well!
ReplyDeleteWow girl!!! You rock my world
ReplyDeleteGOD has a plan for your life!! Let him use you in his mighty ways. Ill be paying for continual healing.
In tears, again, second time watching your video. So glad you’re still with us. Much love from Edinburgh scotland! Come for a visit one day! ❤️❤️❤️
ReplyDeleteExpressing your cancer story may help many people to fight with the disease. Hope you have a healthy and happy life.
ReplyDeleteSaw your story and wedding just now, which was back in 2016. Immediately i was curieus hoe you and Dan are doing now. I was thrilled to see you are still alive. I’m very impressed by the love Dan and you share with eachother. The way you cope with it, and now positive you are. I learn a lot of it.
ReplyDeleteLost of love from Bas of the Netherlands/Europe. Sorry for my poor English.
Hi Jess, such a beautiful love story and a brave fight for life. Could we get an update?
ReplyDeleteLove and best wishes always x