Nurture The Mind

Today was fantastic yet exhausting, I'm officially back to work. Granted, it's still very part time, it's still great to be back in the warehouse! It was a little bit overwhelming at first to figure out my schedule, but I started a spreadsheet to manage my day. I know it sounds stupid that I need to hammer out my daily activities, but if I don't organize my thoughts I'll end up overwhelmed and then I don't want to do anything at all. 

I'm excited that I have a period in the morning to do my writing, so you might just see more blogs. According to my new schedule, I should have about 2.5 - 3 hours of writing each week day. I know it sounds silly, but even the last blog (yesterday) took about 1.5 hours to do even though is only three small paragraphs. Writing takes a lot out of me, but I really enjoy expressing myself. It's a great outlet, and I think setting aside time to nurture my mind is a really helpful thing. Anyway, I'm going to sit back and relax for the rest of the night so I can start fresh in the morning.

I think this new schedule is going to be a great new start, and a new phase in my recovery. I'm excited to have some direction!

The Question

I just found this photo. It was taken in a hotel, a day before my first meeting with the Chief neurosurgeon at the UW in Seattle. At this point of my life all I knew was that I had a brain tumor the size of a tennis ball. I was scared, unsure of my future, and pretty shell shocked about the turn of events. I remember Danny comforting me; we were both scared together.

I guess, right now in my life I'm still scared about the changes to come. I'm grateful that I have the support of Danny, my parents, my brother and sister-in-law, and my friends but even though, it's still scary. I've never done well with unanswered questions, in fact if I was a superhero I'd be The Question (according to Danny).

I'm so glad I've been documenting this experience. Not just for the future, but because it reminds me of the past. Life can change so quickly.