Schedule of Treatment

Seattle is as beautiful as ever today. Just finished a quick jog around the lake, and it felt GREAT. I'm still jet lagged (only got 5 hours of sleep), but I'm starting to feel less and less punch drunk.

My MRI is tomorrow at 10:30 am. I'm nervous as ever, but so it goes, I know the drill and it can not be avoided.

Here is a main run down of my trip to Germany...

Day 1
Arrived Frankfurt and took the train to Gottingen (2 hour ride on the high speed)
Spent the night in Gottingen

Day 2
Taxi to Duderstadt (30 min ride)
Checked in at clinic for blood work and met with Dr Germany

Day 3
Leukephresis (2.5 hour allotted appointment)
Met with Dr Germany

Day 4
Hyperthermia
IV of immunotherapy (each IV included 1 billion)

Day 5
recover

Day 6
recover

Day 7
Hyperthermia (cancelled due to reaction)
IV of immunotherapy

Day 8
Hyperthermia (cancelled due to reaction)
IV of immunotherapy (cancelled due to reaction)
Met with Dr Germany

Day 9
Hyperthermia (cancelled due to reaction)
IV of immunotherapy

Day 10
Shot of my dendritic cells (13 million) primed my immunotherapy
Met with Dr Germany
Took taxi to Gottingen and spent the night in hotel

Day 11
Took high speed train to  Frankfurt and spent the night in hotel in airport

Day 12
Flew home

Each time I got an IV of my immunotherapy I got a slight fever, was dizzy, and exhausted. I slept most or all of the day after each shot. The hyperthermia was not tolerable so I only did it once. It caused massive headaches - incredibly severe. It was so much so that Dr Germany stopped the treatment. He said that the most  important treatments are the immunotherapy shots and the boswellia supplements. Both are scientifically proven to shrink astrocytomas.

From here I have the following shot schedule.....(each will be administered in NYC)


2013
February 13 (with Christel)
March 20 (with Libbey)
April ?
June ?
August ?
October ?
December ?

2014
March
June
September
December

2015
April
August
December

For years after that I only have to do three shots per year.

The first year is going to be disgustingly expensive, but hopefully it will all be worth it! :) Because I'm doing the shots in NYC (not Germany) they are around $7,000 apiece. Yikes! I already have February's trip booked. Oddly, it is cheaper to get a hotel for two nights one block from the clinic and a flight than just a flight alone. How crazy is that?!? The clinic gives dates about 4-6 weeks out, so I'll need to be flexible. The shots are always on a Wednesday, that's a guarantee.

Just talking about all of this makes me SUPER excited. I can't believe I'm doing this!! I'm still working on all the financing, but I know we'll figure it all out. One way, for sure, will be a second annual cherry sale. And this time I want to be there to help out and say hello to everybody (last year it was just too overwhelming). Dan and I are really excited to join in on the cherry fundraiser. And if it goes well we might do a follow up with the soft fruits (peaches, nectarines, plums, etc.) and then finally apples. It would be a total of three fruit sale occasions. I'm getting ahead of myself here, but it's all so exciting!! I feel really good about the fruit idea because you guys get something in return. I feel very uncomfortable just asking for money. It just doesn't make sense to me. We all work very hard for our money and I'm happier when I can give you a delicious treat. Okay, enough of that. I've obviously got jogging endorphins surging through my brain :)

Cheers to a great weekend everyone, and fingers crossed for a great MRI!

The Pleasure of Being Alive

I'm on hold with Jet Blue, figuring out flights. I still don't know when I'll be able to fly back home, but I'm paying for refundable tickets so it should all work out. I booked different flights for Dan already too, and that makes me really happy :) Dan's taking some time off for the surgery and recovery. It's a huge relief that Dan will be with me. He makes me laugh, nurtures me, and puts me at ease. I don't know if you guys remember, but after the last brain surgery, Dan would scoop me up and put me into a bubble bath. He would gently shave my legs and armpits. He coordinated over 80 pills daily, all of them falling at different intervals, even through the night. Dan did not sleep unless I slept, and even then he was so worried about me that he would be taking care of things around the house like food, or laundry, or just laying there softly cuddling me. I never thought I would be as lucky as I am. I never thought I could love someone this much. He's the most gentle and kind human I have ever met. He's amazing. This whole thing is crazy, but I'm becoming more and more ready, not only with the planning but also emotionally.

This is an amazing opportunity. It's the treatment that I wanted, with the best results. Originally, I was going to fly to Germany and do the same treatment. The only difference is that they were going to try and use my old tumor tissue, the one from 2.5 years ago. The problem is that the tumor tissue can morph. So, to have the best success rate you need the freshest tumor tissue. This clinical trial fell into my lap. It landed via email from my brain tumor fighting buddy Jessica. I had written off the trial because I thought that I had to do chemotherapy or radiation - or both - in order to participate. And now, here I am, I'm included in the trial, with the possibility of the absolute best results (I've read that the German treatment is 20% less successful). This trial does not come without costs. There's the cost of the brain surgery, hospital stay, all the medications, all of the scans (MRI, fMRI & DopaPET), all of the testing (pre-surgery language tests, cognitive tests, & surgery clearance), in fact I can't even think of all the costs at this point. The only thing that is free is the actual dendritic cell shots, of which there will be three. And, above the financials, there's the physical cost. We will not know the true amount until after the brain surgery has commenced. I won't feel comfortable until at least 48 hours after the surgery. Last time, I was fine when I came out of surgery, but within 24 hours I started to deteriorate. That's when my duramater peeled from my skull and a blood clot formed in the tumor cavity, and that's why I had to have a second emergency brain surgery. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I won't have the same complications, or any complications for that matter!

I have to run out the door, literally, to a hair appointment. My final trim and tint before the surgery. I'm opting to keep my hair, although they have to shave it in certain areas. I'm hoping to do a Donald Trump comb over :) We'll see how THAT looks. I might get sick of the crusty blood in my hair and the scab could prove difficult in that birds nest, but it's worth a shot. Yes, hair does grow back but unless you've shaved your head you don't understand what it's like to be bald and to deal with the horrible phases of grow-out. It's something I'd rather not experience again. I probably sound silly, but there are things that you can control, and there are things that you cannot. I like to control my hair. I like having the option of wearing it curly, or straightening it, either way at least it's there :)

Could you guys do me a favor? Could you please, after you read this, choose to go for a walk, or a jog, or do a push up, take the stairs, park further away from your destination, and then take a moment to thank your legs, your feet, and your body. After the brain surgery I will not be able to run for quite awhile. I will not be able to get my heart rate going or it will cause headaches and such. It will take time for me to heal, to ride a bike, to hike a hill, to push myself. Over the past 24 hours I've ran 14.5 miles because I'm so grateful to have the option. I've been jogging around the lake, the neighborhoods, like a complete goober smiling at the dog down the street, and his neighbor the calico cat whom I respectfully named the mayor of Green Lake. I'm breathing deeply, enjoying the pain in my muscles, soaking up life. Please join me by doing something that gets your heart going. Please take a moment to thank your body. Please take a moment to truly enjoy being alive.