Problem Fixed

Success! I received a phone call and my neuro-oncologist will meet with us one hour after the previously scheduled, then cancelled, appointment. I feel guilty for having to be so straight forward and direct. It's frustrating to feel guilty about wanting an appointment with my oncologist. I don't enjoy being forceful. A girlfriend who is also dealing with brain cancer gave me solace though. She said that she's never been bumped by her doctor, that at each MRI review she's met with her doctor - not the doctor's nurse (different hospital). And that she would be upset if she was in my position.

I've been bumped at least three times that I can remember. The most memorable was in October. We met with my radiation oncologist's nurse, she reviewed my MRI and said that the tumor looked great, that she wasn't sure if there was any new growth or not - there was an area of concern, but it could be the positioning of my head during the scan. The nurse said that my oncologist would call the following week with the final results. Unsatisfied, my mom pressed on and said, "Is there any way to meet with the doctor?" That's when we headed over to Harborview's Gamma Knife Center, intent on sitting in my radiation oncologist's office until he would meet with us and answer our questions. It turns out that there was significant growth, and when we met with my radiation oncologist, he wanted me to immediately start radiation, the very next week. If we wouldn't have pressed on, and would have instead gone home after the appointment with the nurse, my family would have gone back to Wenatchee, Danny would have been back to work, and I would have been at home when I received the phone call with the horrible news that they wanted me to start radiation. That's not something you should have to hear over the phone. It was a massive eye opening experience, reminding me that I have to stay on top of my care. I'm lucky to have a team, my husband and family, and there's definitely strength in numbers. Follow your gut, and don't be afraid to voice concerns. It's sad that you have to stand up for yourself, but it's the medical world that world we live in. 

Either the University of Washington's neuro-oncology department is understaffed, overwhelmed, masters of double billing, are out of touch with their patients and their feelings or maybe they just don't take cancer very seriously (which I doubt). Maybe it's a little bit of all of the above. Oh well. It must be irritating for some of the nurses and doctors, I don't believe that they're heartless, but there's a bottom dollar and currently my hospital has a bad system, that's for sure. 

On another note, here's a new recipe that I made us for dinner!

Dinner

Lacino Kale Salad
10 large kale leaves, thickly shredded
1 cherry pepper finely diced (you can chop a few of the seed to add some spice)
pine nuts to taste
romano sheep cheese to taste (I zested ours, but you could grate, or it however you want)

Toss the above ingredients (except for the cheese) with a mix of olive and sesame oil, the juice of one squeezed lime, and fresh cracked pepper. Dish up, and zest some romano on top.

On a side note, has anyone else ever noticed that lacino always has a bunch of little bugs in it. They're like little aphids or something. I wash each leaf by hand, pulling the little bugs off, but it's gross. I don't think I can continue to eat it. Any suggestions before I complete give up?

Left Awake Craniotomy. That's me!

My brother is convinced that our first meeting in Wenatchee at the Medical Center was with the head janitor, not the neurosurgeon. That should be a serious clue as to our meeting at U of W.

We're all in shock right now, and I don't even know how to begin this post. Our meeting was vastly different from the meeting in Wenatchee.

I guess I'll just start putting this all down on "paper" and you guys can help sift through the details. Sorry for the disorganization.

On this coming Tuesday morning at 5:15am I will be admitted to the U of W surgical unit. They will take me in and put electrodes on my head and put the exact locations where the laser will cut through my skull. From there they will run me through an MRI and check to see the exact brain waves so they can measure where they need to be careful during the surgical process. Once I'm put under anesthetic they will cut open my head and remove a portion of my skull. Once my brain is exposed they will wake me back up and start removing parts of my tumor. As they are removing areas of the tumor they will periodically place electrodes and conduct shocks, in areas of my brain in and near the tumor. During which time I will be staring at a computer screen answering questions about the visual stimulus, so that they know exactly what they're cutting/removing. They're trying to make sure that they don't remove any of the areas of my brain that I need to function. After they remove every possible piece of the tumor that won't incapacitate me, they will put me back under anesthesia and sew me back up. The process should last approximately 4.5 hours.

My tumor is in brain matter. They will be removing approximately a tennis ball sized area of my brain. There is a 10% chance that there will be complications that could be as mild as no feeling in the tips of my fingers ranging all the way to loss of movement on the entire right side of my body, inability to communicate, inability to read, and inability to form thoughts, and of course death.

I will be in the hospital for a minimum of three days, longer if there are complications. One week from the surgery I will have a follow up appointment where they will have results from the pathologist about the severity of my tumor. The doctors at U of W said that without the pathologist's findings from the biopsy (which we will have one week after surgery) they have absolutely no idea if I'm going to need further treatment (chemo or radiation). They have seen so many tumors, and have seen so many incorrect conjectures, that they don't even guess or assume in any way. If we find out I need adjunct therapy during that first week appointment, they will immediately during that appointment introduce me to the right people, wheel in the machinery and start my chemo/radiation.

The surgeon is removing areas from three sections of my brain, the language cortex, the sensory cortex, and the motor cortex. So, if anything bad happens during this surgery and too much gets removed, I'm going to apologize ahead of time for any anger, frustration, confusion, inability to communicate, inability to read, inability to watch TV, inability to form my own thoughts, or express myself, inability to control my movements, and inability to control drooling. No big deal.

News of record - my Chief does over 290 crainiotomies a year.