I think I've figured things out...for now anyway :) Through excellent advice from amazing friends like Dee Dee, and Aunt Jennifer, along with my girls, my man, and my family, I've been able to put things in perspective.
Sometimes, I can get too introspective, and over analytical. I can tend to focus on the big picture and then try to micromanage my life.
My current goal is to get over that. With this diagnosis, my life and emotions ebb and flow like the tides. Sometimes I'm up, sometimes I'm down, sometimes I'm self absorbed and the rest of the time I'm half way normal.
I hate the self absorbed part, and yet at the same time I end up learning more about my cancer and the best way to handle the medical side, the healing side. 
I'm done with the poor me side for awhile. I say, "awhile" because it always comes back when I worry and second guess. I'm sorry for being a yo-yo. I wish I could control it, I really honestly do. Thank you for all of the comments, the emails, and personal conversations. Sometimes it's as simple as, "Hey, whatever is swirling around in your head I'm sorry that you're going through this."
Thanks guys :) Thank you for helping picking me back up!
Malignant  brain tumors are a significant health problem in children and adults  and are often unmanageable. As a metabolic disorder involving the  dysregulation of glycolysis and respiration, malignant brain cancer is  potentially manageable through changes in metabolic environment. A  radically different approach to brain cancer management is proposed that  combines metabolic control analysis with the evolutionarily conserved  capacity of normal cells to survive extreme shifts in physiological  environment. In contrast to malignant brain tumors that are largely  dependent on glycolysis for energy, normal neurons and glia readily  transition to ketone bodies (β-hydroxybutyrate) for energy in vivo when  glucose levels are reduced. The bioenergetic transition from glucose to  ketone bodies metabolically targets brain tumors through integrated  anti-inflammatory, anti-angiogenic, and pro-apoptotic mechanisms. The  approach focuses more on the genomic flexibility of normal cells than on  the genomic defects of tumor cells and is supported from recent studies  in orthotopic mouse brain tumor models and in human pediatric  astrocytoma treated with dietary energy restriction and the ketogenic  diet.
Keywords: glioma,  vascularity, caloric restriction, ketone bodies, metabolic control  analysis, angiogenesis, apoptosis, inflammation, Warburg













 

 
 












