I think I've figured things out...for now anyway :) Through excellent advice from amazing friends like Dee Dee, and Aunt Jennifer, along with my girls, my man, and my family, I've been able to put things in perspective.
Sometimes, I can get too introspective, and over analytical. I can tend to focus on the big picture and then try to micromanage my life.
My current goal is to get over that. With this diagnosis, my life and emotions ebb and flow like the tides. Sometimes I'm up, sometimes I'm down, sometimes I'm self absorbed and the rest of the time I'm half way normal.
I hate the self absorbed part, and yet at the same time I end up learning more about my cancer and the best way to handle the medical side, the healing side.
I'm done with the poor me side for awhile. I say, "awhile" because it always comes back when I worry and second guess. I'm sorry for being a yo-yo. I wish I could control it, I really honestly do. Thank you for all of the comments, the emails, and personal conversations. Sometimes it's as simple as, "Hey, whatever is swirling around in your head I'm sorry that you're going through this."
Thanks guys :) Thank you for helping picking me back up!
Malignant brain tumors are a significant health problem in children and adults and are often unmanageable. As a metabolic disorder involving the dysregulation of glycolysis and respiration, malignant brain cancer is potentially manageable through changes in metabolic environment. A radically different approach to brain cancer management is proposed that combines metabolic control analysis with the evolutionarily conserved capacity of normal cells to survive extreme shifts in physiological environment. In contrast to malignant brain tumors that are largely dependent on glycolysis for energy, normal neurons and glia readily transition to ketone bodies (β-hydroxybutyrate) for energy in vivo when glucose levels are reduced. The bioenergetic transition from glucose to ketone bodies metabolically targets brain tumors through integrated anti-inflammatory, anti-angiogenic, and pro-apoptotic mechanisms. The approach focuses more on the genomic flexibility of normal cells than on the genomic defects of tumor cells and is supported from recent studies in orthotopic mouse brain tumor models and in human pediatric astrocytoma treated with dietary energy restriction and the ketogenic diet.
Keywords: glioma, vascularity, caloric restriction, ketone bodies, metabolic control analysis, angiogenesis, apoptosis, inflammation, Warburg