Future

This little bird can now fly, her leash has been cut! I could have cut my hospital tag earlier but it felt like an accomplishment, a sweet victory.

 I have not been awake more than two hour at a time today. Somehow, the exhaustion has finally caught up to me. It's been tricky because in order to sleep I have to be sitting up and I can't lean on anything against my head, it's too painful, so it becomes a riddle, a challenge to figure out how to get comfortable. Happily, today I've become so exhausted that I will just rest my face down on my chest and pass out. I need as much sleep as I can so that I can make it through tomorrow. I should be home sometime around 9:30 pm or so.

Of course I can't wait to see Dan, to be home and cuddle my kitty, but I'm also nervous. Dan will be working 60 hour weeks and I'll be managing myself. My parents have been cooking for me, helping bathe me, and taking care of all of my pills and such. I'm going to need to a system figured out for all the serious pills, eight times a day, reminding to eat, figuring out WHAT to eat, etc. I have a feeling I'll be eating a lot of apples :) Easy stuff.

I just ordered vocabulary flash cards and a math work book from Amazon, it should arrive early next week. I figure I can spend a couple of hours each day freshening my brain :) It sounds fun to me, I'm pretty excited. I know I'll spend most of the next month on the couch or in bed, and I don't want to be mentally bored.

We'll be looking into other treatment options soon, but after that I'm already excited to think about the future, maybe even consider taking more courses. Perhaps formal schooling of the Restricted Ketogenic Diet. Who knows!

Decade

Today I was able to see one of my best friends from my college days, my Pi Phi pledge sister Jen. It had been 10 years! It was fantastic, and crazy, and I'm so grateful that she was able to stop by and laugh and hug. My time with my girl friends (there were six of us that were very close - all from Texas) really shaped me from my late teens to early 20's. It was so much fun catching up, I even actually got dressed in real clothes and put makeup on. I felt feminine. Womanly.

Texas was such a life molding experience. I learned so much about myself, made some errors, evolved, and had a lot of fun. In fact, I keep threatening to take Dan to a TCU football game one of these years :) I can barely wait to show him around Fort Worth. Gotta get him a pair of sweet boots! I can not believe it is my 10 year college reunion. Geez.

Time just keeps flying by, but I don't feel old. If anything I feel younger and younger and it's not because my mother is bathing me. It's a youthful energy that can not explain.

I should get back to bed, I have been carefully editing my post for errors and it takes forever. My sleep patterns are still pretty horrendous, but it will all iron out in the end. When I'm really tired, I will just dip my head down to my chest and pass out. It's kinda a sweet trick.