Alright. As you may notice from my lack of posts, I'm working out some things. Like my perspective about this tumor. I've spent the past several days back on the restricted Ketogenic diet which study after study have proven to slow the growth of astrocytomas.
I've basically been hiding away, working my usual schedule then heading home with my cell phone off and limited internet. Usually I'm fine, but recently I'm feeling pretty vulnerable. I'm working on it though. I need to put this diagnosis in its place, but I can't seem to shelve it. It just seems to hover around in my mind bouncing between what I should do, what I need to do, what I haven't done to conquer this.
I guess I'm a little bit of a worrier. I used to call myself a problem solver, but lately I'm just a worrier. I don't feel like I'm solving anything. I think, maybe in time, I'll learn enough to feel like I'm doing things the right way. That I'm making the best choices.
I guess I feel the pull of this tumor. According to research, I don't have unlimited time to make good choices. It's all on me. It's right now. That's a lot of pressure.
