Tomorrow I fly out for New York for my newcastle disease virus shot. And this time, I'm going on my own!! Woop woop!! I'm so excited, and nervous. This is going to be the first time that I've flown by myself since I was diagnosed (as far as I can remember).
It is very important for me to continue to evolve and handle more and more things. I have lived in such fear, for so long, of seizures. I'll wear my medical bracelet, and I'll take all of the necessary precautions, so I know I'll be fine. I can't wait to take back some of my independence! I have appreciated all of the help from friends with my travels, you have all been very, very supportive. But I am gaining strength each day, gaining confidence, and it is very liberating. Although I'm still a worry-wart, I'm getting better and better about slowing down, destressing, taking deep breaths, and my favorite - cracking jokes. I freak out here and there, but I can also laugh myself back into happiness :)
I feel that I have to take educated risks (a solo NYC trip) in order to believe in myself. Never give up. Never live stagnantly. It has been baby steps to get me to this point, and it's thrilling. So I'll fly out tomorrow, and on Wednesday Steph will join me at the hotel for lunch and we'll walk over to Dr C's office. She'll join me at the appointment, then we'll hug and I'll be off to the airport. This is going to be an adventure. I feel excited like the night before I left home for college. This is the most independent I have been in years, and I am really digging it. Fingers crossed all goes well :) And, if I have a seizure it won't be the end of the world. People have them all the time and they're fine. I'll bet I don't have one, but if I do oh well. I can do this.
